I always hated my curls. For years I would get up as early as I could to blow dry and straighten my long blond locks until they were stick straight.
Since I have the thickest hair in the world, this process would take me 30-45 minutes every morning. It wasn't until I served my mission in England, with all it's humidity, that I finally let go and embraced my curls. Now I let it go most of the time.
It wasn't so much the hair but the attitude that changed. Back then I wanted to conform. Straight was in. Stick straight. The hours (oh the hours!!) I spent on getting my hair just right before I felt I could face the world. It was just me hiding myself. The vibrant, lively, funny self that I am. Now I'm letting my hair simply be as I'm striving to let myself simply be.
Here is a clip from Harold and Maude. I absolutely love this clip. I often think about this when I find myself devaluing myself and my contribution to those around me.
Enjoy. I know I always do.