Thursday, June 10, 2010

Green Eyed Distraction

Occasionally I feel this obnoxious tendency to compare myself to others.  I know I'm not alone.  It seems an epidemic among young mothers.  It doesn't matter if she works or stays at home; nobody is immune to the Green Eyed Monster.

What really aggravates me about jealousy is that I don't catch it right away.  I'll be well into my inner tantrum; thinking the worst about my own situation and realizing the impossible chasm envy creates.  Then when I realize what's going on I'm down on myself for being so petty!  Sheesh!

My only hope, my only sense of peace comes from thinking that each day I mature.  Every inner battle I have I'm closer to recognizing Greenie sooner and see him for what he really is-a distraction. 

I have a lot to offer this world.  I have a lot to offer my family.  I really don't care if Tootsie can run 5 marathons in two months or how many words Barbie's kid Cletis can spout.  I'm on my own path here and I rather like it.


Marci said...

I do this too. Isn't it so silly! I actually avoid reading some blogs because they make me feel I'm not accomplishing enough. I start feeling like I am not doing enough with photography, my house isn't clean enough, or I don't do enough stuff with my kids. Thanks for the reminder. We do have a lot to offer, even if it isn't seen by anyone else but our Heavenly Father. You are an amazing woman Jenn, I have never doubted that...and I've known it from the day I met you.

Jill Heaps said...

I needed to hear this today!! I am about to go to Lake Powell with some very beautiful people. Green eyed has been working strong on bringing me down. You are RIGHT... it is a distraction. I don't have to look like them to be a good person. THANKS!
I also LOVE your cards. What amazing talent you have!!

Jennifer K said...

Thanks Jill! I was so happy to see a comment from my new friends at HWHL. Have fun at Lake Powell!